Desires of your heart

I tend to only write these when I feel like I have something really important to say, but then I start writing and I feel like it's kind of dumb so I just delete it and then I end up with a dead blog taking up internet space. We'll see if this post actually makes it to getting posted and if this blog actually stays alive.

Speaking of desires of the heart, I'm sitting here waiting for Randy to call me. (Cheesy, I know, deal with it or leave :P ) I kind of made a cool discovery today and I figured that while I'm waiting I can blog (because homework just isn't as important...or something like that).

Anywho, I kind of had a weird experience today. I don't really want to tell the story...not yet anyways. It gave me an answer to prayer though. Not a prayer that I had consciously talked to God about, but something I wanted deep down inside...actually it was something I did not want deep down inside. I had told myself that I did want it and I knew it was going to be difficult but I told myself I could handle it. There were other various reasons that I had convinced myself that this was best. I'm sure all of this would make much more sense if you knew the story...sorry...maybe someday. Or I'll just forget. Anyways, I received a phone call today that changed everything. I was surprised that I felt relief. I was sad a little bit, but more so relieved. After I took the final steps to bring the situation to a close, I felt this overwhelming peace. It was then that I realized that God had answered the prayer of my heart. All along I knew that this outcome was the best, but I wrestled with it for a while.
It's weird...the desires of out heart... I wonder how often we truly know what the desires of our hearts are. I wonder how often we fool ourselves into thinking that something is the desire of our hearts when it really isn't. I'm grateful that God knows the desires of our hearts.